My Lost Control

Gosh, ever since my parents partially found out about this, they have been hounding me with food. And when people hound me with food, even when they're not there, I will eat! Gosh, this whole cycle is annoying and I need to break it.

I miss fasting terribly. I've lost all control! I've gained all the inches I've lost, what if I hadn't measured correctly in the first place? God. I can't even. I need a scale, so badly. In my spare time I drool over scales on the internet. And diet foods, does anybody else do this?

I feel like if I'm not in control of what I eat, I'm not in control of anything. I need to be in control. I need to feel strong once again.

Someone tell me I'm not alone.