Have Faith

Have you ever had so much faith that something would happen? And it's not like you were, okay, this will happen, while doing absolutely nothing, you put every bloody effort you can put and it just doesn't fucking happen?

I'm having that nagging feeling in the back of my head saying that all this hard work, blood and sweat, will amount to nothing. Which is obviously not true. Must be the devil. I mean, I've spread myself thin preparing for this, there's no way it won't happen, because I have put all my hard work in it.

I'm going to America. I'm going to America. I'm studying in Sandy Spring Friends School. I'm studying in Sandy Spring Friends School. I'm graduating from Phillips Andover. I'm graduating from Phillips Andover. My pastor says when believing God for a miracle, to not stop confessing.

But when I say, I'm working so hard for this, you must understand that I really am. I keep telling everyone that I'm going to Sandy Spring and they laugh. Screw them.